Beauty in an imperfect society

Growing up I was always the super skinny girl the one most would refer to as anorexic. I was always the smallest one in my classroom and when I was in kindergarteen I was forced to eat stuff I didn't like by teachers who would observe as I sat there being forced to eat something I didn't want while everyone else  disected me with their eyes. I recal a teacher who would grab me by the arm and squeze so hard that she would actually bruce it. She would get so upset when I didn't drink my milk. I was just a little girl I didn't know what was acceptable when it came to body image when I was at home I wasn't judged by my family they all saw me as a perfect little girl. Until my teachers had called my mom concerned about my weight. She then started taking me to the doctor often asking why my weigh was so low. It started to make me feel not so normal. Although every single time the doctors would say that everything was fine with me that there was no need to be concerned my mother couldn't help but worry about me. Growing up being thin was always something that made me feel self conscious. I mean in high school girls either envied me for how much I ate with out gaining the wieight or they just plain out called me anorexic. Although I tried not to let the negativity affect me it just always made me look twice in the mirror. I hated wearing skirts and shorts I almost even hated summers because I didn't want to be asked why I never wore skirts, dresses and shorts. I was so self conscious that people would make fun of my stick looking figure I thought. Even physical education was so hard for me  there was always more fully developed girls then me. Being at that age when all they do is talk about their bodies and look constantly in the mirror just made me judge myself even harder. I always had someone wrapping their hand on my wrist and astoundingly yelling at some one to come see how ridiculously skinny I was. There were days when I hated going to school because I didn't want people bringing me down. It was honestly hard to put my best foot forward when I had people judging me as if I was some sort of alien. Life was hard back then but now almost ten years later after graduating high school and being a woman now I can't help but wonder how do young girls now days deal with this I mean its always been around bullying, harassment, discrimination, racism its everywhere. Makes me think its been here its been part of my life and now for the people who have children its probably some of the issues they are facing now. Except now worst then ever since theres social media blowing up everywhere on Facebook, Twitter, theres always some one pointing out a persons flaw's or what they think the idealistic shape of a woman's body is consisting usually of a curvaceous body or a super thin looking body. Why are they even judging on a woman's body? There is just so much more to a woman's body then the way its shaped. Why can't society see it that way. I wish that people would see beyond that and find the beauty in within. I mean its important to be healthy and exercise. But for some its extremely hard to lose all the weight drastically why can't we just motivate more people who are trying their best to do something positive maybe if we encourage them rather then bring them down we would not only help them achieve their goals but feel better about ourselves. I am by far a very imperfect person but I am no one to judge  other's imperfections. When I have yet to deal with my own flaws. I don't have children yet and it makes me really sad that this is the way kids are growing up but things won't change unless we all start to look at them differently. We don't know what a person in particular is going through. What do we know about their live's? Their pain, their problems or struggles?. I wish that people would of known back then that it was their comments towards my body and rude remarks such as " someone give that girl a sandwich" that made me feel insecure growing up. I don't care about that anymore I've learned to accept my body as it is. I am happy and thankful that I have what I do and its all I need. After all there is someone for everybody. Being different is what makes this world so diverse and un boring. Not everybody will have the same taste or like the same shape's but for everybody out there who has any body issues just remember to learn to love yourself first. Do not worry about people bringing you down most people have issues within themselves we are only human. We are not perfect. But do try your best to look at the good things in life who cares what people think about you, or your body everybody has self esteem issues but its up to you to allow the negativity to bring you down or rise up and become more powerful and admiring. Just worry about yourself and let the rest fall in to place. Social media can be powerful in either direction so lets stop by posting rude comments judging people who we don't know. Lets stop spreading unnecessey post's that could bring any human being down. If we don't have good vibes to spread why share it?.I am now a lot happier I am not perfect but I have found a man who loves me just the way I am. We have been married for six years and we love each other with our perfect flaws. Life is what we want it to be. Lets make it Fabulous!